Mom is still hanging on. No one quite knows how or why. I am constantly being asked if there is something that needs closure for her: is there someone from whom she needs to hear; some significant date looming in the distance. How am I supposed to read my mother's mind? I have no idea why she is clinging so tightly to the life that she wanted so desperately to leave. So I cling to the imagery that the hospice nurse provided: we are now in God's waiting room.
The last time Mom ate or drank anything was 10 days ago. The last time she spoke or opened her eyes was 8 days ago. That person lying in the bed is no longer my mother, she is just a corpse who continues to have a pulse and every once in while gasp for air. I was told 12 days ago that the end was "eminent". I was told a week ago that any breath could be her last. I was called out of school on Wednesday because "it could be any minute and she is just hanging on for you to come." And yet...she still continues to hang on. I was told that she will probably not make it through this weekend, but I am sure you can understand why I don't hold much faith in those words.