I am in a good place.
It took a while to get here - and I know I can always improve but....I am in a good place.
I won't go into much detail here, although perhaps detail will be forthcoming, but suffice it to say that I have maintained a good writing regimen since February. I have maintained my morning pages via 750words, and in February I also developed a devotional routine, which has me reading two different devotionals at YouVersion (Rick Warren's - Decade of Destiny, and Joyce Meyers' - Promises for your Everyday Life).
While my summer was far from perfect, I must admit that this writing routine, coupled with Patti Digh's Verb Tribe for Teachers, helped me to maintain perspective and find peace - something that has been lacking in my life and I have wanted for years.
I went to our teacher in-service yesterday ready to start the year. I was teaching more classes than I wanted, but I knew that retirement was a mere three years away, so I was willing to continue. I adore my school - I love the administration - I respect the families - and like most of the students :)
But yesterday I learned that life could be even better than I ever thought possible. And again, without too many distracting details let me just say that I went into the meeting prepared to teach my full course load and I left the meeting lighter and freer than I ever anticipated.
There was a teacher there who wanted more classes - and who was more than qualified to teach the classes that I felt most inept. It was a win-win situation --- for the two teachers involved as well as for the students.
I never bothered to pray for my teaching schedule to be reduced. And yet....I desperately wanted it to be reduced. I have wanted it to be reduced for two years. At this time in my life I feel as though I have too many other interests to pursue: writing - photography - a greeting card ministry. And as I have heard so many times before: if not now....when?!
And then I received this little love-gift from God. Without asking for it in prayer - He knew my need and granted the desire anyway. How awesome is that?!
I am now teaching the classes that I truly feel called to teach: Brit Lit - Yearbook - Grammar - English Comp. Just the sound of those classes makes me tingle with excitement. Yes, this is indeed going to be a GREAT year.
Of course, I will no longer be known as the "super teacher" --- the one who maintains 10 different preps in the course of one academic year. And while I never did it for the accolades (I truly do love to teach).....I must admit that those accolades boost the ole self- confidence. And I must relinquish that crown to other "super teachers" But I believe that this, too, is a life lesson. I am doing what I am supposed to do: nothing more and nothing less. And there is great comfort in that.
I am learning that I am indeed...enough.